When i got upset, i always want to tell anyone thats cross my mind. I would like to share the upset moment so that i can be less upset. Perhaps, I may forget that shits moment. Same goes when I was so sad. I need someone to tell so I know I wasnt alone to face this. So that, I wont have the useless thoughts ie cut my wrist so I bleed or just commit suicide bcs the pressure too high.
But theres some time, that person who made me upset have their time to make me smile till my cheeks hurts. Theres some time, that person who made me sad got me laugh my heart out for their stupid jokes. And these good moments usually I keep within myself.
I hate to be in the middle of people. I hate to choose. Sometimes I have the thoughts that, perhaps I should keep everything inside so that I will never be this bad situation. Perhaps, shared my stories aint bring good for me after all.
I'm sorry. Theres so much happen in head. Im not well.
