tbh, idk how to say things that used to be in my mind
but when i do, i just ain't got enough courage to speak out
this is sad as fxvk and idk how long i've to be like this
to me, its not easy to tell 'em the truth
cause i afraid of their reaction, maybe
or maybe i just too ego but
i'll lower mine just for only one man that i love
and it takes time for sure
sometimes, i need too much time think what i supposed to say
what i supposed to react, what i supposed to do
does it worth it, does it gonna be fine with me
everything mess is end up with myself and i will shut everyone out
i just wanna be alone, think everything or nothing
just wanna be alone not because i hate everyone around me
i just hate myself to be mentally breakdown and keep tellin' myself
"what's going on with you, ain?"
yeah, too many thing and they're keep running in my head
many things i can't understand and i wanna let it clear
but this fear stopped me and its fxvkin' hurts
