courage

tbh, idk how to say things that used to be in my mind

but when i do, i just ain't got enough courage to speak out

this is sad as fxvk and idk how long i've to be like this

to me, its not easy to tell 'em the truth

cause i afraid of their reaction, maybe

or maybe i just too ego but 

i'll lower mine just for only one man that i love 

and it takes time for sure

sometimes, i need too much time think what i supposed to say

what i supposed to react, what i supposed to do

does it worth it, does it gonna be fine with me

everything mess is end up with myself and i will shut everyone out

i just wanna be alone, think everything or nothing

just wanna be alone not because i hate everyone around me

i just hate myself to be mentally breakdown and keep tellin' myself

"what's going on with you, ain?"

yeah, too many thing and they're keep running in my head

many things i can't understand and i wanna let it clear

but this fear stopped me and its fxvkin' hurts