unfortunate

I don't understand how did the memories keep popped out more often now. Like it was happen yesterday. The memories seems to be freshly paste at my mind. It becomes critical when I realised that every time I wake up and going to bed, that damn same person shows up. What the hell happen to me? Cut the craps "when you remember that person, they're remembering you too". I don't believe I miss him, thats ridiculous. I don't believe anything about love. Maybe, Im not understand what is happiness what is a real love. Sometimes watching fairytales do not help in order to understand what is love.

Letting go isn't love. If you can't live without that person, then why do you dare to let 'em go with others and yet still can living live like you used to. Maybe, living half alive but at the end, you'll survived. Sound weird to me when it's been clash with this thought. 

Why try to holding on to someone lost the love you loved the most? Let them find their happiness even if you're not one of them, it is that fucking love? 

My december this year is a peaceful but my heart and head are collide, they weren't agree to each other about love. And it's so messed me up. I feel like I should not shred a tear for useless emotions. Urgh fuck all this. Maybe love, I'll pass.



I really hate this.